Sometimes I’m just tired of
my facade
I feel like it completely
overtakes me at times
I crumble beneath it
I laugh and believe the words
that I hear
To be the truth
These words are ones that
I speak
It’s hard to question what
You say yourself
Your hearing isn’t playing
tricks on you
But it is you who plays
the fool
I’m just tired of
my facade
Sometimes I wish those around me
could see the wrinkles around my eyes
And view them as cracks
Breaking the surface
But they do not
And I stay there
At myself
Ha Ha Ha
It was so funny that I
forgot to laugh.

To You

Please don’t get me wrong
I wanna keep it moving
When I go home
I tend to close the door
I never wanted more
Too much of a good thing won’t be good for long
Although you made my heart sing
To stay with you would be wrong
Why am I so emotional?
No, it’s not a good look, gain some
self control
I don’t have much to give
Don’t have direction, I’m just
rolling down this road
I know I’m not the only one
I know I’m not the only one
Should I refrain
From talking to you
Why do you think I would come ‘round here on my free will?
Oh the truth spills out
A chance encounter of circumstance
We both have demons, that we can’t stand
Can’t you see that I am yours?
You’re my life support
Believe me
When you’re not there
I find myself singing the blues
Can I lay by your side, next to you
And make sure you’re alright?
I’ll take care of you

If you were to love me
Who would I be to judge?
I would try to guide you along
a different route
But you’re as stubborn as me
And you would stay planted
at my side
Truth out
Ears open
Tears shed
And here you still are
Feet planted firmly on the ground
Next to mine
Mine are dancing
A person with ADHD
unable to retain themselves
Having to move along
No direction in mind
But away from you
Not comforted by the thought
of you
Sticking around
Terrified by the thought
that I
won’t stay
You are the truth
and I
won’t allow myself
to listen

"Do one thing everyday that scares you" my favorite quote but yet I haven’t found situations recently for me to live it out. Shall I go hunting for the challenge or relax my bones until it comes looking for me?
Eleanor Roosevelt